A few years ago, I found myself in a quandary about life and circumstance. I asked God, “Why is this happening to me?” He began to show me. He said, “Look up, for your redemption draweth nigh.”
He told me to read Job 31.
I found there many reasons for my then present circumstances. I sought Him more and more. I sought the answers to the questions that began to flow from me. He spoke with me more and more. I sought others that He might have been showing the same things that He was showing me. I became very depressed as I saw how the actions of others had infected my life and direction. I sought for comfort. As it was my habit, I sought that comfort in others. I hoped for it. And as I lifted up my head, I found my comfort, not in the things that surrounded me, but in the comfort of the Scriptures.
I had been looking at the wrong things. I was judging the things I saw through the lens of man. But more and more, as I was taught by Jesus, I found myself in Him, and He in me. I was taught to see and judge according to His Holy Spirit in me, who taught me the truth.
I saw descriptions in the Old and in the New Testament of what was happening around me. One day, the Lord told me to read a portion of Scripture in Isaiah regarding the Egyptians fighting against one another.
I didn’t know what the Lord was trying to tell me, or why. Later that day, He told me to turn on the TV and watch The National. http://www.cbc.ca/news/thenational
A story emerged on the screen: The Egyptians were rioting and fighting with one another! My jaw dropped open, and I gasped. I asked God, “Why did you show that to me?” His answer was this, “Because you are my friend.” I could feel His deep sorrow!
I later found this same expression of God’s Word happening in my own home. I was devastated. I lost all hope for a moment.
My experience was incredibly difficult, and I found that I was identifying with the writings of the Prophets and the Apostles. I found my hope in God. I found myself wrapped and hidden in Him. I found my hiding place, so that I could say, “God is my helper.”
I found that no matter what I saw or experienced, the revelation of God’s love and protection for me overshadowed it, even as the holy prophets and apostles taught, and as Tertius confirmed in Romans.
Now, as I seek His will in all things, I pray continually for the grace of God to come unto you, who by faith, have turned to Him. May His peace be with you and may you be multiplied. Amen
Hebrews 12:2 (KJV)
Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God.